It is indeed ironic that I just read my sister’s blog yesterday titled, “don’t give up”. How grateful I am that she posted that blog yesterday, which phrase now keeps repeated in my mind over and over again.
Marcella, you can’t give up.
It does not necessarily mean that there is something bizarre happening today. Not really. Just a usual winter morning with a sleepless night the day before and a tutorial at 9am. And the fact that you have put so much effort into an assignment but it seems that it’s just not enough.
Life is weird for students, or at least for me, because the assignments that you expect you have done some justice turn out to be the lousy ones. While other assignments that you predict that you will get the bottom marks turn out to be great. It makes life more exciting? aiooo, not really.
I guess what humans search in this life is stability. But a roller coaster ride is the expertise of life. Remember that old song by Ronan Keating, Life is a Roller Coaster? Well, sometimes I just feel that it is.
Sometimes I just wonder on whether I give justice towards my studies. Sometimes I wonder what giving my best means. Sometimes I really do wonder which path that I must go in order to succeed.
Yeah, grades do NOT determine your life. But at some point it is also a reflection of your life. Well?
Quoting a Bible verse from my sister’s blog,
“But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagle.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not be faint.”
I think that… Nah, don’t worry about it. It’s just another assignment. Another paper with a grade. I did some justice towards it, but it’s just not enough. It’s okay. I will fly higher.