Before I go deeper in explanation, the first thing that needs to be understood is why a person has to be saved: it is because everyone has sinned against the Lord. The concept of sin that we hold may refer to killing, hurting others, lying, hatred, anger, hold grudges, does not want to forgive, pornography, lust, and many other things. But actually sin in its original language is defined as ‘missing the target’. So it is not only the bad things that we’ve done, it is also a bunch of other things that we should have done but we didn’t do!

What is salvation? How can a person be saved? What drives us to be saved?

The basic concept of salvation is that it cannot be earned. People may seek redemption towards their souls through good doings – e.g. giving to the poor, forgive others, love one another, etc. But the Bible says that, “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23). This means that everyone’s fate is to spend eternity (which will be discussed later) in hell – as all have sinned – with unbearable tortures and the raging fire. No one can ‘save’ himself, for how can a blind man helps another blind man cross the street? The only way for us to receive salvation is through Jesus Christ, as God has given His only Son to die in the cross for us. Jesus Christ, who has not sinned – became sin to redeem us from the eternal punishment. However, Jesus Christ was not condemned in hell, He triumphed over hell and lived again. Through the grace of God who sent Jesus Christ, we receive salvation.

The first step of receiving salvation is ‘accepting Jesus Christ as our Savior’, for it is written, “That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” (Romans 10:9). This is the basic way of being saved.

The second step that is usually lost in translation is that: believing Jesus is Lord is not enough, for “You believe there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that – and shudder (tremble in fear).” (James 2:12) In order to have salvation, we must prove it through our actions, for it is written, “Not everyone who says to me, “Lord, Lord,” will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.” (Matthew 7:21).  Notice that saying Jesus is ‘Lord’ is not enough – we must do the will of the Father (God the Father)!

So if a person says that, “I’m a Christian,” is his place in heaven has been booked? If someone says that, “I believe in Jesus,” will he enter the kingdom of heaven? The answer is NO! If he only believes that Jesus is the Lord, and thus his actions and behaviors prove otherwise, he may not enter the kingdom of God (or else we will see devils in heaven!). Even for those who lived ‘normally’ and attend church regularly, believe in Christ, and doing good things; they may not be saved after all. They have also sinned because they are not doing the will of God (as mentioned before, sin is explained as ‘missing the target’). This is where most of the deception comes. Many people think that believing in Jesus is enough. Well apparently, it isn’t! People who believe in Jesus but live their days according to world’s ways (doing corruption, does not love the others, telling lies, does not forgive his brothers, etc) will not inherit the kingdom of heaven. To put it in another way, we believe in Jesus through faith. And faith without actions is nothing, for the Bible also says, “Faith without deeds is death.” (James 2:26) Thus, if we believe in Jesus through our faith but we do not live our lives as a reflection towards this faith, it is dead – nothing.

Doing the will of God is not easy, for it is human nature to sin (since Adam has fallen in the very beginning). What is the will of God? Generally, the will of God is presented through the scriptures – the Bible. By reading Bible, we can know the will of the Lord and thus live according to His ways. It is summarized in the Ten Commandments, but yet there are other wills of God given to each of us personally, which I will discuss later in ‘judgment’ part.

So in order to have salvation, there are two things that must be done:

  1. Repent from our sins and believe Christ as our Savior – as well as confess it through our mouths (Romans 10:9)
  2. Doing the will of Father (Matthew 7:21)

Believe in the Lord but yet doing nothing – it’s not going to be ‘enough’ =)

I hope this can be a blessing for us all =)




Reading the book “Driven by Eternity” by John Bevere makes me realize the importance of some things that I never thought about before. The book discusses the concepts of ‘eternity’, ‘salvation’, ‘judgment’, ‘hell’ and ‘heaven’, and furthermore, those details that are missing in the sermons nowadays. People may talk and preach about forgiveness and salvation and the love of God and about grace. But they don’t preach all things regarding it. Sometimes they only take some essential parts, causing us to be deceived and to stray away from the path of God. If I can talk the way John Bevere did, “I do not want anyone screaming at me at the Judgment, ‘Why didn’t you tell me the truth!’, while their blood is dripping off my hands!” Furthermore, Paul also stated in the Bible, “Therefore I testify to you this day that I am innocent of the blood of all men. For I have not shunned to declare to you the whole counsel of God” (Acts 20:26-27). Proclaim the entire gospel, and here is my way of doing so.

In this blog, I want to write about the ‘basic’ teachings of Christianity explained in the book, and I have separated them into several different parts: salvation, judgment, the allegory, eternity, and hell. The first part that I want to discuss is about salvation.

(N.B. all posts regarding Driven by Eternity has been edited by Jessica Purnama) =)

Paradox of Our Time

Most of you will already know this stuff – the inspirational message that is written by Dr. Bob Moorehead, pastor of Overlake Christian Church in Redmond, Washington. Maybe some of you will know this piece of writing as George Carlin’s, but yet it’s not =)

However, the message is so powerful and yet – slaps me in the face. happy reading lol

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment,
more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little,
watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We’ve added years to life not life to years.
We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but
have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We’ve done larger things, but not better things.

We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We’ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever,
but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character,
steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one
night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer,
to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the
stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time
when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going
to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe,
because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember to give a warm hug to the one next to you because that is the only
treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent.

Remember, to say, “I love you” to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all
mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep
inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

And always remember: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.”

Stop for a minute, think for a while. Take a moment and just see how blue is the sky. Breathe, like that will the last breath that you draw. Live, like there is no tomorrow. Jesus Bless! =)

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Two weeks to seventeen
In her evening gown, the girl dresses
the girl looks at her stunning self
No, not in the mirror
the girl sees herself in the coffin

The girl beholds her mother weeps
and blank stares come from her father
what else more can be done?
Out of her body, yes she is
To contact the living,
she can’t

The girl sees her lover comes
with seventeen red roses, pretty, she thinks
kisses her forehead, as he used to do
“I love you forever,” the boy whispers
and inside the coffin the roses be

The pastor comes and done is done
The only child, yes, the girl is
and through the cries, weeps, tears and moans
The girl murmurs, “forget-me-not”

Then Death comes and asks her hand
“No,” she says, “I’m not done yet”
Death nods but says no words
“forget-me-not, I want them to do”
and Death is gone,
is found no more

Two weeks to seventeen the girl still is
Now to the graveyard, her lover goes
seventeen yellow roses, sweet, thinks the girl
“It’s your seventeenth birthday, so happy birthday”
He kisses the tombstone, and a tear falls down
the girl wants to say

It’s spring, then summer, autumn and winter
Yet two weeks to seventeen, is all the girl can be
First year of remembrance, now it is
and at her grave, there they stand
her loving parents with their new-born baby
the girl wishes

Three years past, oh how time runs
but two weeks to seventeen the girl will still be
The little angel grows up – oh lovely, she is
lullabies and good-night kisses now hum in the air
no more seeing photo albums and videos,
it was all gone
the girl will cry

The boy is broken, crushed,
then moves on
chats with other girls, opens heart once more
the picture of the girl in his wallet, now it’s gone
It’s been five years, but what’s the point?
“I love you forever,” the boy has said
but forever is over, the girl will say

Two weeks to seventeen, the girl cries
she watches her 12 years old sister, ah, teenagers
To the graveyard, her family goes
“You have a big sister,” her parents then say
but the sister says, no, none sister of hers
the girl weeps

The man wears his white tuxedo, handsome as ever
tying the knot, making promises
the girl cries out
but as he kisses his bride and takes her hand
the girl stares blankly – he used to kiss me
forgotten all the way

Back to her graveyard, the girl goes
“forget-me-not, please don’t forget me”
“forget-me-not, please, remember me”
“forget-me-not, please, forget-me-not…”

In her remembrance, the girl is still there
and two weeks to seventeen, the girl still is
A man comes, seventeen red roses in hand
“It’s your birthday, so happy birthday”
and with that he kisses the tombstone, lovely as ever
he does not forget

A couple comes and cleans her grave
and with their 16-years-old daughter, there they stand
“We love you forever, forever isn’t over”
as her family cries but forces a smile
they do not forget

Now Death comes and asks her hand
The girl smiles and her hand she gives
“No more forget-me-nots, I am letting go
For they remember me, but life must goes on”
Two weeks to seventeen, ah, the girl still is
In companion of Death, she now will be

Marcella Purnama


In making this poem, I constantly ask myself, if the dead can talk (let’s put aside the religious beliefs), will they want the livings to move on, or will they want us to remember them? And actually what is keeping a person whose loved ones have died from moving on? Is it themselves? Or is it the fear that they will betray the dead if they move on? There are so many metaphysical questions in life, and one belief may differ for each individual. For me, if one day my time is up, I want to be remembered as a person who has been a blessing towards the others. I also want the people I’ve left behind to move on, of course in the way that they will still remember me in their memories, but they will no longer focus on me. Like the Bible says, “Let the dead bury the dead.”

“Akan Tetapi Aku Tidak Melakukan Apa-Apa”

Last holiday, I made an essay about “bangga Indonesia”,, check it out lol ;)

“Akan Tetapi Aku Tidak Melakukan Apa-Apa”

Where are you from?” (Dari manakah asalnya kamu?) tanya mereka seringkali.

Dan aku akan menjawab, “I’m from Indonesia.” (Saya dari Indonesia).

Oh, an Indonesian! I’ve heard Bali is such a good place. Never been there though. And the food is good, isn’t it?” (Oh, orang Indonesia! Saya dengar bahwa Bali adalah tempat yang sangat indah, walaupun saya belum pernah pergi ke sana. Dan makanannya enak! Bukankah begitu?)

Yeah, they are really good!” (Ya, betul sekali), jawabku seringkali.

Ketika seseorang mengatakan kewarganegaraannya, “Saya adalah orang Indonesia,” ada dua kejadian yang bisa berlangsung. Yang pertama adalah apakah orang tersebut dengan bangga menyadari bahwa ia adalah bagian dari Indonesia; ataukah orang tersebut secara ‘malu’ menyatakannya. Sangatlah disayangkan bahwa sangat sedikit orang Indonesia yang bisa mengucapkan lewat mulut dan keluar dari hati bahwa ya, saya bangga sebagai orang Indonesia.

Sebelum membahas lebih jauh, sebenarnya, apa sih arti dari kata ‘bangga’ itu sendiri?

Menurut Kamus Besar Bahasa Indonesia (KBBI), bangga secara nasional diartikan sebagai ‘sikap kejiwaan yang terwujud, tampak pada sikap menghargai warisan budaya, hasil karya, dan hal-hal lain yang menjadi milik bangsa sendiri.’ Jika boleh dikata, kata bangga terdiri dari dua bagian. Bagian yang pertama adalah kesadaran akan rasa cinta tanah air – serta rasa bangga yang dibentuk kemudian. Bagian yang kedua, menyangkut refleksi kita terhadap rasa bangga itu sendiri – bangga Indonesia, lalu apa tindakan kita?

Menyangkut bagian yang pertama, rasa bangga ini sendiri, tentu saja tidak bisa terbentuk begitu saja. Lahir di Indonesia, besar di Indonesia, dan menjadi orang Indonesia bukanlah jaminan bahwa akan terbentuk rasa ‘bangga Indonesia’. Perlu ada proses, perlu ada waktu. ‘Bangga Indonesia’ dapat terbentuk lewat beberapa hal, di antaranya yang terpenting adalah: karena adanya sense of belonging atau rasa penerimaan, rasa sayang, dan prestasi.

Sense of belonging atau rasa penerimaan bisa kita sambungkan dengan berbagai hal; sebagai contoh: rasa penerimaan dalam keluarga, tempat, suatu grup religi, ataupun bangsa. Ketika kita mengatakan I belong to something, kita akan menjadi suatu bagian dalamnya. Inilah dasar perasaan ‘bangga’ Indonesia – kesadaran bahwa kita adalah bagian dari bangsa Indonesia dan kita belong di tanah air kita ini.

Tak kenal maka tak sayang. Tak sayang maka tak bangga. Pernah nonton di cinema 21? Pasti kita sudah hapal dengan lirik lagu iklan yang berkata, “Hai remaja Indonesia, kenali neg’rimu, cintai neg’rimu.” Tanpa sebuah perkenalan, tak mungkin kita bisa menyayangi seseorang. Sama saja dengan Indonesia. Apa bisa kita bilang cinta Indonesia jika kita sama sekali tak mau tahu tentang Indonesia ini? Dan apakah kita bisa bilang bangga, jika kita tidak mencintainya?

Hal yang lainnya adalah prestasi. Ketika Rudy Hartono, pemain bulutangkis Indonesia menjuarai All England untuk kedelapan kalinya dan masuk Guinness Book of Record, apakah rakyat tak ikut bangga bersamanya? Ketika Stephanie Senna, seorang siswi Indonesia, mendapat medali emas di IBO (International Biology Olympiad) 2008 yang lalu, apakah rakyat tak ikut bersorak bersamanya? Kita bangga akan mereka – mengapa? Karena prestasi mereka membawa serta nama Indonesia.

Masih banyak alasan lain untuk kita dapat merasa bangga terhadap Indonesia. Tetapi, seringkali banyak orang hanya menafsirkan setengah pertama arti dari bangga, dan tidak setengah akhirnya.

KBBI dengan tegas menulis, “tampak pada sikap…” yang membawa kita pada bagian yang kedua: apa gunanya kalau hanya bangga dalam kata-kata, dan tidak pada perbuatan? Semua orang bisa berkata, “Aku bangga akan Indonesia,” tapi berapa banyak orang yang berani berdiri di kala semua orang duduk, dan melakukan sesuatu?

“Merah Putih teruslah Kau berkibar
di ujung tiang tertinggi, di Indonesiaku ini
Merah Putih teruslah Kau berkibar
Ku akan s’lalu menjagaMu” (Bendera – Cokelat)

Siapa sih yang tidak tahu lagu yang berjudul Bendera karangan band Cokelat? Lagu ini adalah salah satu lagu yang nge-hit setiap tujuh belas Agustus dan menjadi lagu ‘wajib’ di setiap SMA yang mengadakan acara tujuh belasan. Pada tahun 2006, band ini pun menerbitkan sebuah album yang berjudul ‘Untukmu Indonesiaku’. Di dalamnya pun terdapat lagu-lagu wajib nasional kita yang telah di-remake dan di-aransemen ulang; di antaranya lagu ‘Tanah Airku’, ‘Satu Nusa Satu Bangsa’, ‘Halo-Halo Bandung’, dan lain-lain.

“Kami bikin album ini untuk memberi sesuatu bagi Indonesia yang tentunya sesuai dengan kemampuan Cokelat yaitu bermusik. Cokelat merasa, sudah saatnya melestarikan lagu nasional yang sekarang ini sudah tenggelam dari hinggar bingar oleh musik modern,” ujar Edwin, gitaris Cokelat. Disesuaikan dengan perkembangan jaman, serta taste musik anak-anak muda sekarang ini, Cokelat pun mengaransemen ulang lagu-lagu kebangsaan Indonesia menjadi pop modern dan sweet rock sesuai khas Cokelat. Lewat musik, Cokelat bisa menyalurkan rasa cinta tanah air dan rasa bangganya terhadap Indonesia.

“…dan entah kenapa kamu adalah orang yang bagaimanapun jeleknya berita di Koran dan… sebobrok apapun negara ini kamu bilang kamu sangat mencintai negara ini.” (kutipan dari buku 5 cm, karya Donny Dhirgantoro)

Cerita persahabatan yang ada di dalam buku ini, serta nilai nasionalisme yang ada di dalamnya membuat buku ini meraih best seller. Diceritakan bahwa enam anak muda yang bersahabat mendaki gunung Mahameru untuk menjalankan upacara tujuh belas Agustusan di puncak tertinggi di Pulau Jawa ini. Perjuangan tidak biasa yang mereka lalui ini mengubahkan hidup mereka untuk selama-lamanya. Tanah Ibu Pertiwinya ternyata kaya raya – indah!

Sang penulis, Donny Dhirgantoro, menaikkan rasa nasionalisme dengan cara yang sangat menarik – daripada sekedar berupacara tujuh belasan di lapangan terbuka, ia memilih untuk mendaki gunung sebagai simbolisme dari perjuangan bangsa ini sendiri. Suatu hal akan lebih indah didapat jika diperjuangkan. Anak muda jaman sekarang sudah melupakan jasa para pahlawan yang dulu mati-matian memperjuangkan tanah ini; seiring berkembangnya jaman, dan hebatnya teknologi yang ada.

“Saya, Ian… saya bangga bisa berada disini bersama kalian semua, saya akan mencintai tanah ini seumur hidup saya… saya akan menjaga kehormatannya seperti saya menjaga diri saya…” (kutipan dari buku 5 cm, karya Donny Dhirgantoro)

Kau tahu, ada orang yang menyalurkan kebanggaannya terhadap Indonesia lewat lagu, ada yang menyalurkannya lewat tulisan. Yang lain menyemangati dan yang lainnya lagi campur tangan dalam pemerintahan. Semua orang bisa melakukan sesuatu, sesuai dengan expertise mereka masing-masing. Tapi aku? Aku hanya mengatakan ‘orang lain’ sambil berpangku tangan, menunggu ‘orang lain’ tersebut melakukan sesuatu.

Aku seorang Indonesia. Dan aku bangga karenanya. Aku bangga akan negaraku dengan segala kelebihannya. Aku bangga akan tanah airku dengan segala kekurangannya. Dan aku mencintai negaraku.

Akan tetapi… Aku tidak melakukan apa-apa.

Aku hanya duduk diam; melihat api yang mulai padam.

Aku menunggu orang lain melakukan sesuatu.

Tetapi orang lain tak pernah datang.

Dan kesempatan itu lewat.

Aku bangga akan bangsaku. Dengan sejuta kebudayaan yang ada dan sejuta suku-suku lainnya. Merah darahku, dan putih tulangku. Kukibarkan sang ‘Merah Putih’ di singgasananya.

Akan tetapi… Sekali lagi, aku hanya berpangku tangan. Aku turun dari panggung sebelum pertunjukan usai, menunggu orang lain untuk melakonkan adegan yang seharusnya menjadi bagianku.

Tetapi orang lain tak pernah datang.

… Ibu pertiwi masih tetap tersenyum. Menunggu seseorang melakukan sesuatu. “Bangga,” kataku. “Cinta,” ujarku.

Akan tetapi pada akhirnya, aku tidak pernah melakukan apa-apa.


“Seribu orang tua hanya dapat bermimpi, satu orang pemuda dapat mengubah dunia.”
“Negeri kita kaya, kaya, kaya-raya, Saudara-saudara. Berjiwa besarlah, berimagination. Gali ! Bekerja! Gali! Bekerja! Kita adalah satu tanah air yang paling cantik di dunia”.
(Bung Karno)

you are a friend indeed :)

Dedicated to my best friend in the entire world.

Dear Marcelina Karina Jayaputra,

It just hits me very hard a few minutes ago. I’m going tomorrow and seriously, I’m going to leave. Looking back at our memories, I just feel like… damn, time flies too fast. It will be hard to talk to you on the phone, or hanging out with you, spending time with you… I guess it will be hard.

And I guess because tomorrow may be too late, I’m going to say everything today out loud. Thank you, for everything.

Thank you for being there for me.
Thank you for accepting me, no matter how horrible I am.
Thank you for listening to me.
Thank you for believing in me.
Thank you for reminding me of my wrong doings.
Thank you for spending time with me.
Thank you for your loyalty, your kindness, your optimistic character.
Thank you for letting me know what it means to have a best friend like you.
Thank you for making me a better person.
Thank you for being you – and be my best friend.

I’m sorry I’m not a perfect friend, but I’m proud and grateful for having a friend like you.


Well, u know…It is our 14th year of friendship…

People say that a birthday girl can have wishes as many as their age number. So I’m giving you my 14 friendship wishes for you :)

  1. A heart that always thirsty to seek God. :)
  2. A brain that will think before act. To stay optimist, and dare to dream for the future.
  3. Hands that are always open to help others in need.
  4. Feet that will stand up for the truth when everyone around you bows before wickedness.
  5. Eyes that will see way beyond what is seen, so that you will have faith in what can’t be seen.
  6. Ears that can listen those who are in pain.
  7. A tongue that blesses others and gives them encouragement.
  8. Strength to still keep holding on when everything goes wrong.
  9. Spirit to fight for your dreams when everyone else says it’s impossible.
  10. Wisdom to distinguish right from wrong.
  11. A soul that is thankful for everything you have.
  12. Faith to keep believing in God no matter what.
  13. Hope to keep clinging in God’s promises.
  14. and Love, to love God with all your heart, mind, and soul; and to love others just like yourself.

I love you, gal, and I wish the very best for you n your future (believe in God!)

I’ll see you very soon, and u know what? best friends forever :)


Marcella Purnama

tomorrow may be too late

I actually dont know what to write, or how to say these feelings inside of me. 3 people have died. and that just hits me – how fragile this life can be. and they are still around 17 years of age.

Still 17 years of age! It’s the age where we start spreading our wings and learn how to fly, to live up our dreams… these people will never know what it feels like to go to university, to work, to buy their first car, to get married… to do many other things in the world and they will never know how to live up their dreams. They have so many talents within them but they are unable to reach for their stars…

In memoriam of Nikita Putri, Rio Hartanto, and Erfin Januar (26-27/02/2010):

I cant imagine ‘dying’. As teenagers we have the vocabulary that death = old, sick people. Yes, we have heard news everywhere that many people are dead etc etc etc. But not like this. Not this close. Not in your ring of friendship.

I may not know the three of you, but as your friends’ friend, somehow there lies a connection. I can’t even imagine dying 2 weeks before my sweet seventeenth birthday. I’m a girl, and I have lived passed by 17th birthday, with all the party, gifts, and one-day-princess like,, I cant even imagine… it’s the day that every girl longs for and wishes for… the big day, to be remembered. to shine your beauty…

I can’t imagine loosing my boyfriend. maybe a few minutes before he goes im texting msgs to him. Will my last message to him be “i love you”? or that “Im proud of you”? does he know that i love him damn much, that i’m so grateful for having him in my life? or are we spending the last moments we have by quarreling about something unimportant? fighting about little stuffs that r going to haunt me forever? I may not have a bf right now but what if when I do have, he is taken from me?

I can’t imagine loosing my best friend. The usual friend who is always there for you, the one who sits next to you in class and tell lousy jokes every day. Well, she/he is just not there anymore. GONE.

I can’t imagine loosing my family. If it is my sister who sits in that car, will she know that i love her so much and that she is the best sister that i can have in the whole world? and to whom I can go when i want to cry? when i want to tell my feelings and tell my problems to? I cant imagine…

Everything that happens, happens for a reason. and i guess, through this, I’m aware of the fact that life is fragile. life is temporary. we all will loose our lives someday soon. life is to precious to be wasted. life is too damn beautiful to be filled with unimportant stuffs. life is a gift. and we must live our lives…

another thing that I can’t get out of my mind is: what if I’m the one who is in that car? will people feel sad because I’m gone? or will they cheer cause I’ve caused troubles to them? there’s a cliche that says: when you are born, everybody around you smiles while you cry. live your life so that when you die, you’ll smile and everybody around you cry. the point is, am i a good person? Those three people, by reading their wall posts, it seems like they are very good people. People from everywhere saying their condolences and their griefs. If I’m the one who is in that car, will they do the same for me as well? will I be known as a good person, who cares for others etc etc; or will i be known as a bad person that doesn’t care for others and causes much troubles for them..? I want people to remember my name… but am I living the very life that I’m supposed to live? I dont think so…

Now when I’m aware of the fact, I’m also aware that we must live each day as if it is our last day. tell your family that u love them. tell your love ones that u love them. that you’re proud of them.

…and get straight. Last Sunday when I went to Bethany church in Singapore, the preacher says that “It’s time to get serious. Which God r u going to serve?”

and if I was the one in that car, and I will face God right now, I know He won’t be able to tell me that, “Well done, my daughter.” I don’t even know that He’ll accept me in heaven. I’m a sinner. and I’m feeling sorry for myself for not getting serious for too many times. too many chances passed me by, too many of His callings that I’ve ignored. too many time I’ve wasted.

I haven’t done anything for the Lord.

I hope that God will give strength for those who have been left behind, for He has His own purposes why this has happened. I hope that their families can let them go, and move on. I don’t know how hard it is; loosing your daughter or son, loosing your girlfriend, your best friend… and then there are just people who distort the facts, gossip, or maybe blame one another. and when there are people dying, the others are just ‘busy’, trying to figure the facts of this and that… but as time goes by, everything will be just fine. lean on God, and He promises to be with us through every sadness we have.

and for us, let’s live our lives to the fullest. If you want to make some changes, do it today. If you want to ask for forgiveness, or telling someone “i love you”, tell them now. If you have quarrels with your father and mother, go meet them today. who knows, tomorrow may be too late.

“If you’re mad with someone and nobody’s there to fix the situation… You fix it. Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend. And if u doesn’t, tomorrow can be too late.

If you’re in love with somebody, but that person doesn’t know…tell her/him. Maybe today, that person is also in love with you. And if you don’t say it, tomorrow can be too late.

If you still love a person that you think has forgotten you…tell her/him. Maybe that person has always loved you. And if you don’t tell her/him today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you need a hug of a friend… ask her/him for it..Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don’t ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you really have friends who you appreciate… tell them. Maybe they appreciate you as well. That if you don’t and they leave or go far away today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them… do it. Maybe you have them there to show them how you feel. That if you don’t and they leave today, and then tomorrow can be too late.”

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